New Years Eve Weekend! Was in Vegas for the 1999 to 2000 party. Was married in Vegas in 2003. Used to go to Vegas every quarter after making quota and getting a bonus check. Was in Vegas less than a month ago for one last bender. I have not broken and I will not break. I am even going to put down the nicotine for New Years and pretty sure things will change dramatically. Last crutch going in the trash can. Except of course for the brownies and ice cream I just bought.
24 days of sobriety.
1 John 3:23-24
And this is his command:
to believe in the name of his son, Jesus Christ, and to love one another as he commanded us.
Those who obey his commands live in him, and he in them. And this is how we know that he lives in us: We know it by the Spirit he gave us. - NIV
I believe in Jesus Christ! I believe because I am lucky and he shows me that he takes care of me no matter how stupid and self destructive I am.
I believe in Jesus Christ because I feel him and the Spirit when I pray, study the Bible and just think about him during the day.
I really am trying to obey his commandments. I am trying to become a better person. I am trying to be good to people around me. I am trying not to get angry towards people who piss me off. I am trying to go out and find some new relationships.
I fall really short. I am stubborn, but I am trying. I have not broken on being sober. I do fail when it comes to relationships, but I am trying there.
1 John 3:18 Dear Children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. -NIV
My actions so far are simple: be sober and don't gamble. Read the Bible. Pray.
I read earlier today or last night about these guys in a boat on stormy waters. Jesus walked out to them on the water and one guy got out of the boat and starting walking on the water to Jesus. The tides got high and he panicked and called out to Jesus who reached out and saved him. Sorry don't remember the verse.
I want to be like that guy. He got out of the boat and started walking on water! Sure he failed and Jesus had to reach out and help him, but he got out of the boat and walked on water!
Joseph is another guy I want to get like. Here he had a new wife who was pregnant before he was with her.
Mathew 1:24-25 When Joseph woke up, he did what the angel of the Lord had commanded him and took Mary home as his wife. But he had no union with her until she gave birth to a son. And he gave him the name Jesus. -NIV
What a nice guy. To believe in God so much that he could accept that his wife became pregnant with Jesus. Jealousy and anger with women is such a huge struggle when your young. I can't imaging having a pregnant wife who I hadn't been with. It would drive me crazy. Even before that it says that he was going to quietly divorce her. Joseph didn't get angry and want revenge. He just did what we are suppose to do. He did what the Lord commanded.
I want to have faith and do great things. I want to take the steps I need to. I want to be a nice guy and love. Reading the Bible and applying it is the answer. Having loving relationships with the right people is the answer. Not demanding my own way all the time and doing what I am told is the answer.
The meeting tonight was great! Good people. Thank you Jesus.
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